NYE 2015 did not come with any resolutions. I didn't say, “I’m going to gain muscle, and eat healthier” like I typically do. I didn’t want to buy into the One Word for 2016 like the rest of society, but I did say that I wanted to continue growing.
For instance, My relationship with J is firmly planted, rooted, and has germinated, but we still need blossoms and fruit. We graduated May 2015 and started a long distance relationship with no plan cemented on how to make it just a relationship no distance required. I hope 2016 brings closure to that ambiguity and us closer together (figuratively and literally) but that isn't the resolution I made.
Instead, I want to keep connecting to myself, my thoughts, my feelings, more. One way I do that is through meditating with the Headspace app, doing yoga, or journaling. Personal writing helps me flesh out anxiety provoking thoughts. One day whilst browsing pinterest, I came across the idea of a gratitude journal. It seems to bring the writers calm, peace, and happiness. If so, bring it on.
In order not to put too many expectations on myself, I decided to be gentle. Write down something daily that makes me grateful, and try not to miss more than two days in a row. If I miss a day, it is okay to fill in something a day late. So far, I've written something for 23 days. Never have I done something 23 days in a row, not an instagram calligraphy/lettering challenge, not going for a run, and not even flossing my teeth (but don’t tell my dentist).
Now I feel empowered! I can say I am going to do something and do it. I don't have to be the quitter always. My friend Taylor started a blog this year, and has up more posts than I do. Her writing is funny and just tells the story of her every day. I've had blogs since sophomore year of high school 2008, yet still struggle to produce original content. Perhaps Taylor and gratitude journaling is helping me become the empowered person that I want to be. Off to floss my teeth and hit publish!
See you next time,